Struggle of my heart

I struggle to state what I already know.
The strength of my love continues to grow.
At first it was easy one step at a time.
But this has no rules reason or rhyme
Everything sorted I seemed in control
But in the blink of an eye you capture my soul
Emotions keep racing when ever you’re near.
My life is on hold almost frozen with fear
Then you are gone to wherever you go
To late to tell you what you may already know
What happens next only time will reveal
I give you my heart with a kiss for a seal
I am truly smitten with all that you are
Do I share you my thoughts
Or just admire from afar

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If Only

If only I had done the things
That keep our love alive,
I wouldn't have to acknowledge now
That our love cannot survive.

If only I had told you
The joy you brought to me,
Instead of bringing you complaints,
You wouldn't have set me free.

If only I had treated you
As if we were best friends,
I wouldn't be alone in grief,
As our faded love finally ends.

If I had often said to you,
"It's you whom I adore,"
Perhaps you'd still be with me now,
If I had told you more.

If I had touched you, kissed you, Love,
If I had loved you stronger,
If I had appreciated you,
We would have lasted longer.

If only I didn't have to say,
"If only, baby, if only,"
I wouldn't be all by myself
searching for you to help

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Little Angel Has So Much To Say

The Roses by her side, have long since passed away,
Whatever she once saw, turned into Gray,
As death comes closer, she takes her time to pray,
This Little angel still has so much to say.

Life is fading fast,
Sometime she wish she could forecast,
She is begging to Lord to make her stay,
But at this rate she will be gone in a day.

She never wanted to suffer with this disease,
For the love of her parents, she is taking it with ease,
She wish to be granted that day,
Where she can ditch the bed and run around and play.

Her parents blame themselves for carrying death in their genes,
But they understand, they can still see her in the dreams,
They know she can never grown up or have a wedding day,
yet unlike most parents, they understand there's no way,
So they'll send her to the heaven where she'll forever stay,
Her last words will forever ring a bell in her parents ears,
"Don't stop living and shed tears,
I may go now but I'll always be at heart,
And you will always be in my sight."

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Love at First Sight ... !!!

When I saw you the first time,
I don't know what I saw in you.
But from that moment on,
I felt as if everything was really new.

From that very first day,
You got tattooed into my mind.
Oh I cant get you out of this head of mine,
And leave you behind.

Whenever I see your face,
My heart just starts to pound.
You take my each breathe away,
And spin my world upside down.

I could find myself dreaming,
That once we would be together,
People say that I'm crazy,
But I don't really bother.

Girl, you caught my heart and locked it in,
With just a glance,
I wish I could be with you,
If only I got a chance.

Loving at first sight,
Never thought it could be true.
Never thought it could happen,
Till the day I saw you

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Falling so hard...!!!

As each day passed I felt so empty and alone,
You touched my heart that I thought was stone,
Your words became so appealing,
One could not help but start drooling,
A prince was all I wanted and needed,
Expectations is what you exceeded..

My feelings couldn't be denied,
In your arms ; I wanna reside,
I haven't felt this way in a while,
All I can do is walk around with a smile.

Everyday I feel so good inside,
I cant wait till the day I be by your side,
As far as the future, we cannot see,
but together forever we will always be..

Like I said before about my prince,
You are the one, no need to convince.
Although I do not want to rush,
I cant help but tell everyone you are my crush,
You are my Prince Charming,
This feeling are truly mesmerizing..

I cant believe; Im falling so hard,
Living at far; way more than a yard,
I'll be sad until we can be face to face;
But u still got me wanting to be in your embrace.

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The Beautiful Game

Stepping on the field

This belongs to him           

It is where

He is in control.

Long before he came here

He have prepared for this day

He reaches down

Pluck the grass from the earth

Feel the energy of the moment

Nothing else matters now

It’s only about this

This is the beginning

The beginning of something great

Walking to the centre line

He Turns and view the pitch.

The others who stand with him

In this battle

Prepared for what is to come.

This is his fight

It is his moment

It is what I know

What he lived for...

The whistle sounds

Ball advances

The Beautiful Game

It has begun

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To date on Internet

Internet dating, Profiles online,
Hoping for answers if anyone has time,
Checking daily to see what response are there,
Hoping to find someone who would care,
You think that there's some Chemistry,
And you hope they feel that spark,
Only to be rejected
And know that Cupid's arrow missed its  mark.

One day U get a response, U haven't talk to him in a while,
Finally there is someone who can bring u a smile,
A few friendly words from someone you have not met,
But you are not sweethearts, just not yet.

Messages back and forth each day,
Never quite knowing what to say,
How long should you both chat? Should you ask to meet?
Are you being too forward? U type.. u delete..
But the messages keeps coming to and fro,
The level of intimacy still continues to grow..
U hope U say nothing to live in regret,
But you both are not sweethearts, not yet.

One day you may meet and emails will end,
A start of relationship or maybe its just friends,
Over candle lit dinner and glasses of wines,
You may share loving glance, your hands entwine,
Planning meals, night out and weekends away,
He will be the last person you will think of each day.

But what if it ends in a haze,
All you do is look at his picture and gaze,
You end up being a drastic mess
All you wanna do is lock yourself and rest.

Im not against dating,
Im not against people being happy,
Im against pointless relationships,
Because it a lot of time and no emotions..
That how it feels to date on internet,
Like a bird trapped in a net

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Goodbye but not forever though

We met a long time ago,
It was love at first sight I know,
I loved you and for you I cared,
but with you those feelings I never shared.
 
Then I learnt Someone else you love and care.
To come between you both, I would never dare.
Not because I did not want to 
but because I wanted happiness for you.

Then I did go for another arm, 
but with him, I could never be calm.
For this I now know that I was wrong
for all these years your love I've longed.
Of you I have thought throughout the years.
For you I have shed so many tears.
So long ago I solemnly vowed
to tell of my love for you if fate allowed.

 

Our paths crossed again not so long ago.
I remembered the vow of my love you should know.
Before I could tell you, you gave a surprise.
You told me you loved me and brought tears to my eyes.

 
You told of your love and how much you cared
how you felt sad that this you had never shared.
You said that you felt bad for telling me so late
and for this you will never forgive yourself and hate.

 

All this time I have dreamed of your touch
to know you wanted the same means so much.
We have shared so much from the present and past.
I have prayed so much that this would last.

 
You have told me that what we want is wrong
How can this be when we have loved so long?
Something happened and we fell apart
Crushing my dreams and breaking my heart.

 

To love you was a gift from above.
The gift of love, the mirage of dove
.My heart won't allow me to let you go,
it wants and misses you so.
I tried to leave to mend the pain,
but it is about to drive me insane.

 

Saddened and hurting my heart goes on
knowing again that you are gone.
Because in your hands is where my heart lies
Alone and depressed it sadly cries.
Please know that this is how I truly feel
because twice in my life you have made it all real.
I know you had feelings that you just would not show.
I know that it hurts when you want to let go.
My actions say yes but heart still says no.
I love you with my heart and soul.
You made me feel loved, you made me feel whole.
I have always known that you are the one for me.
I still believe though you say it can't be.
There is one thing that I have to say
I love you too much to just walk away.
We said goodbye but I want you to know.
Goodbye is goodbye but not forever though

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I fall in love with a man I dint see

I lie down and think of writing about him,

Nothing comes to my mind, except an image in rim,

He looked like an outline of a man in rage,

When went closer, he was simple & composed like a sage,

He had his hair arranged in a spike,

Look at them, seems all barber’s are on hike,

His eyes were dark and serene like a scoop,

Once you look at them, you fall in a loop.

He was 5.8”, intelligent and smart,

You can consider him as a quirky art,

A daring, caring man with a tousled hair,

Boundless curiosity and a spirit to share,

He seems to be a man with no ego and pride,

Someone I would love taking a ride,

He is an epitome of love and crazy dream,

Just like the buttermilk with extra cream.

I tried to have a simple Conversation,

He was shy to express, that was my conclusion,

He says he never had any fantasy,

I guess I have a place to fill him, I have a vacancy,

A boy with pure passion and lust,

His erection seems to never get rust,

I wondered if he was right,

Whether he is saying the truth,

One moment he made me happy,

Another moment he made me blue.

His mind seemed to be mysterious,

But looking at him, he wasn’t serious,

He was as enthusiastic as in carouse,

He was a figure to make me arouse,

Opening my eyes to this feeling unseen,

I let him be my only king.

With the passing time, I was losing my essence,

The reason for his prolonged actions,

Anger in him was like a ponderosa pine,

Come in front of him and he would break your spine,

He had the craze to smoke and is a sleepyhead,

He is someone to dream about in the future ahead.

The persuasion of his dream seem a little tough,

But nonetheless he is far more than tough,

At one point when he was not able to control,

He struggled a little and thus changed his role,

I know his heart is full of worries,

But he never answers my queries.

He has his secret no one will ever understand,

He appears so strong on the outstand.

For a while rejection and alienation become his identity,

In all desperation, he cried out for serenity,

He stood firm with his grit and courage,

Fighting all odds and breaking worldly cage,

He desire a future so bright and glee,

Which will once again breathe life in thee.

He is a person to hold through difficult times,

His caring words are worth much more than dimes,

A partner who fills your life with laughs and smile,

These memories of him last for miles and miles,

He is a joy that cannot be taken away,

Once he enters, he is there to stay.

Having a bestie is today’s trend,

But I’m talking about my boyfriend,

His name has pride in them,

Look, this man is  in my hem,

I have this thing in me,

I fall in love with a man I dint see.

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A beautiful Chapter

A beautiful chapter in my book,
A women so beautiful when she look,
She is a queen with a throne and crown,
Glowing image that can never be drown,
She looks forward for the life ahead,
But never minds what people said.

A women so down to earth with no pride,
A women who loves taking joy rides,
She may lie something in disgrace,
But never afraid for things to face,

She is having lots of chaos,
Along with some buried woes,
But she never minds the past,
And leaves behind thing at last.

Sometimes people see her quirk,
But at the end she does her work,
For the way sun rises and sink,
She is a sweet memory to think

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Unless its too late...

I have endured through time,
Silence enfolded me,
I resonate myself with things,
I was replete with his memories,
I started ravishing in  a hobby,
A hobby like singing or writing for a chance,
I was really reckoned,
For a while I abstain myself from things,
Because everything reminiscent me of him,
Maybe I was epitomize,
Or maybe I lost my raison d'etre,
I wish I could enliven life,
I wish to be equanimize,
Unless... Unless its late..
Unless its too late...

But one day something happened,
An event.. an epoch making one,
I was overwhelmed at the sight,
Something caught me & I was entice,
My heart and mind were entwine,
Like the victorious feel while crossing the line,
I saw a man, Someone playing like a magician,
At the sight, I tuned in like a musician,
He was like an enlightened body,
His smile brighter than million suns,
A figure burning with the fires,
Someone to light up my desire,
I knew that moment
I was ensnaring.. Ensnaring in love,
I wish it was a dream,
Unless its too late..
Unless... Unless its too late..

At the time of enrooting,
enrooting his heart,
Inside was a little kid with rage,
Who appeared as calm as a sage,
I was so enriched with the love he offered,
That I went beyond my pale,
I never felt this way before,
For someone I dint even know,
My heart jumped off my chest,
As he leans in and I felt his crest,
Maybe I should not be close,
But its too hard to turn down your dose,
I wish I could stop it before..
Before its too late..

Oh love,
I wish the enormity of our love was infinite,
I wish I could enrapture you all the time,
So as to embark by the love you have,
I wish I could enshroud my feelings for you,
I wish our relation to never be ephemeral,
I wish I could enthral you always,
I wished... I wished...
I wish you had time for me,
I wish you never took me for granted..
I wish I could spend the rest of my life with you,
I wished to keep you happy,
I wish to have you beside me always,
Unless... but its too late..
Its too late...

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Complimenting each other

There is something between you and me,
Something that cant be seen,
I like the way you walk,
I love the way you talk,
I like how your nose carries your glass,
You are like a blissful drop of dew on dry grass.
You wrote a quirky chapter in my book,
I wonder how you manage this hairy look,
I love the way you make me feel,
Sometime I feel its a dream - Pinch me if its real..

I compliment you, you compliment me,
You are the weirdest creature no-one can ever be,
You are admirable,
You are desirable,
Your laugh makes my day,
You are perfect for me in every possible way,
You make me feel that I'm the best,
Like I'm really better than the rest...

You are like an angel send from above,
Someone to make me feel blessed and loved,
I don't think you will understand,
The place in my heart where you stand,
The way you have touched my heart,
Shows how good you are at this art.

Even In the darkest night,
You glow like the brightest sight,
All the love I have in me,
Is all meant for thee,
For this I wanna thank you again,
For being a hope on a barren land devoid of rain...

Since we have met,
Our love has grown,
While Im in the world,
You will never be alone...

I compliment you, you compliment me,
You are the weirdest creature no-one can ever be,
You are admirable,
You are desirable,
Your laugh makes my day,
You are perfect for me in every possible way,
You make me feel that I'm the best,
Like I'm really better than the rest...

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Raison d'etre

They say loving you was a crime,
But it was a beautiful rhyme..
They say I can never love Someone,
but still I loved you the most..

They refrained me from everything,
but I was ravished in your love..
They kept me resonating with things,
But I'm repleting in your memories..

They abstain me from doing things,
but everything reminded me of you..
They say I'm self-obsessed,
But I'm obsessed with you..

They say I made a mistake,
But I did everything to be with you..
They say I don't have the right to live,
But I wanna live.. and die in your arms..
They want me to be reckoned,
but you are my raison d'etre...

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Heart Ache

I hate how he manages to get me back,

When he knows I’m in a mood to slap,

The way he just know the right thing to say,

With all my feeling displayed in an array.
 

How I miss him every moment he gets out of sight,

How I get lost in his thoughts and things seem right,

The feeling of eternity and security in his arms is true,

I fear to let myself fall for him and things get screw.
 

The warmth of his touch gushing through my heart,

Hiding all this is an ultimate art,

Tears roll down my cheeks when I’m torn apart,

It’s good to see you turning into a new part.
 

The way he makes me feels in his presence,

He makes sure to fill the space in his absence,

The way he pretends not to care and that I’m Mad,

I don’t like him hiding feeling engraved inside.
 

I told you I can ease your pain unless u trust me to some extent,

The pain of hatred and breaking, I want to prevent,

The love bond we share is fucking amazing,

Like an electrifying gush down the body, something too crazy.

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Love You

 

With the passing time I’m losing my essence,

The motive and reason for my existence,

For a moment I thought of living a life,

Where everything will be perfectly right,

I loved you with all the madness I had,

But maybe that never worked for you, it’s sad.

 

We fought, tears roll down my cheeks,

But there was no one to hold, mere silence and peace,

I wonder if that was me or you who dint care,

Whatever the reason might be, I’m still scared.

I remember I was angry with you,

On something you disapproved,

You said you love me with all it takes,

Maybe that was my mistake.

People said strong you are to be alone,

How to say it affected me as a whole,

The moments we shared can never be forgotten nor turn old,

Even when things get bad and our love gets cold.

 

And I had to let you know so you will not forget,

That when I say “I love you” I mean that nugget,

I can prove it through time if I get a chance

What matters really are we being together atlast.

 

 

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I wonder how I met you,

How I fell in love with you.

Your eyes tell me the story untold,
The treasure of love hidden in so.

 I love it when you look at me,

The vibes go straight down through me.
I miss your smile which makes me sick,
The laughter which causes your eyes to shrink.
I miss your presence, the time we kiss,
I miss those times and I say I wish.

 I shed my tears wishing I could,

I could really live with you,
I wonder how you staying away,

I really can’t be more this way,

I want your hands around my waist,

I wanna hear those jokes again.

 I miss you hands, the way it feels,

It always makes me go crazy and sick,
I love you and I won’t deny,
'Coz baby you are always mine.

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Special One

 

Wondering about things is nothing new,

But thinking about you is something I knew,

From the first time we met,

Till the last moment of greet,

I always made sure to take a glance,

Without missing a single chance,

Your eyes seems to be mysterious,

But i know you are never serious.

 

When you take me in your arms,

Your chest gives me enough warm,

The time when my lips met yours,

That sweet kiss was all my cure,

With you, i loved walking in the park,

Like a symphony playing in the dark,

You have turned into my new dose,

Not too far yet too close.

 

People come and go through life,

You’re something who keeps running through my mind,

For I just want to spend my life with you,

But I’m still waiting in the longest quene,

You make me laugh and make me cry,

But I won’t leave, that I will definitely try,

Because for the time I spended with you were special,

Like a white marrying a racial.

A feeling Un-described..

When you are around,
My world goes upside down,
The moment you touch me,
A jolt of current passes through me,
I like the way you make me smile,
A smile that radiates over a mile,
The fact that you love me pleases me,
A silent promise to never leave.

All the little things you do,
Makes me love and adore you,
You say you're an open book,
But there is something hidden as you look,

Sometimes Im curious to know,

But then I let it go,
Conversations are something we are not good at,
But sitting next to each other feels perfectly right.

I know Im not good at words,
But surely you are my knight in shining armour,
I want someone to make me feel special,
Someone who won't be a jerk and act all racial,
I admire this feeling and being loved,
The knowledge that it is all mine which you have shoved.